As I’ve been thinking more about my life and where I’m at, where I’ve been and where I’m going, I’m so blessed that I’ve found such a good relationship with the Lord.  I’m sure that I couldn’t get through anything without Him!  I’m in a place now where I see that life is way too short to let the small stuff get to you and truly, let anything get to you without just trusting in God.  I find myself beginning to take control sometimes over the stressful things going on in my life and being able to now say to myself, “let go and let God,” that is such a wonderful thing when I do it.  My scans from my PET Scan were clear and that was such a relief!  Praise God!  Yet, I’m still having pain, still having issues that I’m not feeling well and so that will have to be figured out.  I thankfully go to a family doctor here in Arizona on Tuesday and she will hopefully become my primary care physician who can follow me more closely.  The one thing that I found myself stressing over a little bit, but have let go, is that I now know that PET Scan’s aren’t always showing my kind of cancer.  It apparently likes to hide, especially behind scar tissue and so often it doesn’t show up.  I have also disovered that most people in my EHE group suffer from chronic pain of some sort and I can very much relate!  Pain in their joints, pain in their back, pain pain pain and that’s a crazy thing because everyone also seems to suffer from the fact that people with EHE don’t look sick, so others can’t always tell or have empathy when you look “healthy.”  I want to do more for EHE, more to help fundraise and more for those in my group who are suffering from those tumors who are aggressive or growing at this point.  Prayers are my first angle, but I also want to create a fundraiser or event that I can do to help financially or help to bring more awareness to EHE.  I hope that I can get others to join in this cause!

On another note, I’m sad today as I found out that my favorite teacher in high school died, Mr. Ray Schwerdt.  I had him for three years in a row, as a student for a year and then as a teacher’s aide for two years.  He was the one that I thought cared about me in school, as well as Mrs. Marian Chandler.  Mr. Schwerdt is the one who convinced me that I needed to teach because I would be great at it.  I still remember the day that I ran into him at the Mt. Shasta Mall and it was after I’d graduated with my bachelor’s degree and was so discouraged with not finding a job yet.  He told me that I should become a high school teacher because he thought I would be great at it. I thought he was crazy!  But it turns out…it was his idea that pushed me to that direction and check it out, I’m going into my 21st year of teaching!   I’m grateful for that and I’m also grateful that I was able to let him know he was my reason.

God night and God bless